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draconicdog) wrote2022-09-05 03:09 pm
draconicdog) wrote2022-09-05 03:09 pm
Trans joy
I'm getting top surgery this Friday. I'm getting top surgery, this Friday.
I knew I wasn't cis when I was 13, started binding at 14, and came out as a trans boy at 15. I'm 20 now, and top surgery has always felt like a distant promise, literally a miracle that I'm just waiting on the precipice of. The fact that I'm four days away from this operation that I've been awaiting for six years is unfathomable. When I say it's going to change my life, I mean it, and I imagine that only trans people will understand the magnitude of that sentiment.
In celebration, here's a list of things I'm looking forward to when I don't have boobs:
I knew I wasn't cis when I was 13, started binding at 14, and came out as a trans boy at 15. I'm 20 now, and top surgery has always felt like a distant promise, literally a miracle that I'm just waiting on the precipice of. The fact that I'm four days away from this operation that I've been awaiting for six years is unfathomable. When I say it's going to change my life, I mean it, and I imagine that only trans people will understand the magnitude of that sentiment.
In celebration, here's a list of things I'm looking forward to when I don't have boobs:
- Sleeping on my stomach comfortably
- Hugging my friends without feeling dysphoric
- Swimming
- Being able to change my shirt in front of other people
- No more underboob sweat
- Feeling my shirt against my flat chest
- Being able to run comfortably
- Not being afraid to answer the door unexpectedly
- Being casually shirtless
- Not being misgendered by strangers because of my large chest
- Having small, masculine nipples
- Looking in the mirror and seeing the body that I'm meant to live in
- Wearing outfits that I like
- Not feeling anxious when I walk into a new location
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